I don't know what I want now. I wonder if I really like Adriel or not. Should I tell him? But I'm afraid that he'll then never talk to me, like he did to Melissa. Also, I am not from NYGHS, which has the type of ladies he likes. So you can say that I can't take up the challenge. I have already missed a few chances to tell some guys that I like him. So Adriel can be just another guy who shall never know that I like him. Please don't get me wrong. I'm not 'guy' mad. Just really wonder when can I raise my courage to voice out my feelings for a guy. Maybe soon or in a few years.