My soul is seemed to be unstable over the past week. Mentally & physically exhausted. Too many things to be accomplished within a day. I sometimes have thoughts to commit suicide to escape the reality's pains & sufferings. This situation is usually occurred at night, around 8-9pm. I really hope that things can get silky for me very soon within the days. I really can't take the stress I have from my studies, my things, my family. I want to have somebody to lend me his shoulder to pour out all my troubles. Oh man, where's the person? But then, there is still need for me to calm down and reflect. Maybe this's what life is all about.