I found myself haven't updated my blog since last week. Hmm...actually, I have been feeling better for the past days. And I was thinking a lot too. Maybe I saw other people preparing to leave temporary jobs & go to universities as freshmen. And I was the only one left behind. I'm the one who will work till next year's May and then I will start my academic life again as a Polytechnic student. Feeling inferior? Definitely. Why not going to private university? Don't really like their courses & have no confidence to waste my parents' money in this kind of education. Haiz...who's behind me? I really don't know. Perhaps nobody who can give me solid support. Come on, what am I doing with my life?! I found myself underperforming all the way for many years. I really hate myself. I'm like a failure in life. Oh, life sucks.